QAMISHLI, Syria, May 10, 2022 (BSS/AFP) - With tears pouring down her
cheeks, Syrian mother Shawafa Khodr mourns her daughter, missing since the
crowded migrant boat she boarded hoping to join her fiance in Germany sank in
the Mediterranean.

  Khodr refuses to believe her daughter is dead, hoping against the mounting
evidence that the young woman did not drown in the waters off Lebanon, but
has somehow survived.

  "I will wait for her every night and pray to God for her safety," 60-year-
old Khodr said. "Maybe she is just lost on the beach somewhere".

  The distraught mother even kicked her son out of the house, after he said
that she should come to terms with the fact that her daughter may never
return.

  Khodr's daughter, Jenda Saeed, 27, and her friend Inas Abdel Salam, 23,
were engaged to two brothers in Germany.

  Last month, the pair left their home in war-ravaged northeast Syria on the
start of the long journey to join them.

  They headed for neighbouring Lebanon, from where they set out on April 23
on a boat jam-packed with 84 passengers hoping for a better life in Europe.

  They never made it: the boat capsized when it was being chased by Lebanon's
navy.

  - Perilous sea crossing -

  Of the 84 passengers, 45 were rescued but 39 are still missing, according
to the United Nations.

  Saeed and her friend Salam are, along with six other Syrians, among those
unaccounted for.

  Khodr stares at a photograph of her daughter wearing a red and white
sweatshirt, a braid cascading down her shoulders.

  "She carried my scarf in her bag, so that I can protect her," she said.

  On the eve of her daughter's trip, Khodr held a party to celebrate her
daughter's upcoming wedding.

  "I was happy then," she said, watching a video on her phone of Saaed
dancing during the party.

  "But now not a day passes by without tears," she added, wiping her wet
eyes.

  Thousands risk the perilous sea crossing to Europe each year: last month,
the United Nations refugee agency said more than 3,000 people died, double
the toll from 2020.

  But Khodr said she did not know Saeed planned to travel on the dangerous
migrant boat route.

  "If I had known she would travel this way, I would have stopped her," she
said. "Even for her weight in gold, I would not have gambled with her life."

  - 'Wedding in heaven' -

  But unlike Khodr, Hiam Saadoun, 42, mother of Inas Abdel Salam, said she
has accepted her daughter has drowned.

  While her body was never retrieved, Saadoun held a funeral for her inside a
tent in the northeast town of Qamishli.

  Her only hope today is that rescuers eventually find the corpse.

  "I wish I could have seen her in her wedding dress," the mother said, a
picture of her daughter in her hand.

  "I used to imagine her at home, surrounded by children and family... but
today I hope that her wedding will be in heaven."

  Saadoun said her daughter had long wanted to flee Syria, where civil war
since 2011 has killed nearly half a million people and forced half of the
country's pre-war population from their homes.

  "She was looking for a better life in Europe," she said.

  "She would sometimes tell me: 'I have a feeling that if I go, I will never
come back.'"